philosopher

Today I decided it was too hot to running. We have had an introduction to summer, and in two days had to switch from spring suits to sundresses (which means that I have dresses alla over home, with the usual clean, wash, iron etc.) I took my bike, which is good for touring, not for sports, it has no gears, so I can’t climb even my garage, but anyway I managed to ride in the plain outskirts of town for an hour or so and I logged a good 6km. I went along the river, discovered a lot of new homes, not very beautiful, I am afraid, and a quantity of flowers in the gardens. I rode along the “camp contumacial”, the hospital, outside the old, and now gone, town walls, where were kept poors and sick (now is a military barrack), and then above the river to the cittadella, the forteress built in 1721, that only recently has been appointed to the town. it was a great way to see my town witn new eyes…

Today I am happy, for no particular reason: yesterday me and Francesco went to the theatre (45 minutes  drive to and from, because here in Alessandria there is really nothing to see), but we had a wonderful time, for a mere 16 € (10$ two tickets- this speaks volumes, in Alessandria you pay 3 times more…); we slept well, today I took a nap with my kitten, now I am writing. I said, I am happy.

And on Sunday I just watched the time while running (It was awfully hot and I was trotting like a toddler more than properly running) and I did 1k in 12 minutes, which for my age and my weight it is not bad, not really bad. I know that I can  go back to a under 10 (minutes) km. I just have to run.

Ok, I feel I have tried all. And I am fat (fatter) 161. And I am definetly menopausal.  My hormonal levels show that, even if my thyroid is working, my ovaries are definetly going to retire (and I feel too young myself to retire, either from work or for life)  I’ll go and see my ob.gyn (hoping  to  haver an appointment within days, not weeks). What bothers me most, together with  changes in my body’ appearance, is bloating. Most of the weight i put on is water, and it very difficult to get rid of it, at least for me: it is as difficult as shed fat.
A friend in buddy slim asked what could she do to help: well just asking was a great help. Thanks !
I cannot ask my husband, who is involved in his own weight problems ; and my best friend didn’t struggle with weight all of their life, a thing, besides ( struggling with weight, that is), I want no more to do. Should I adopt a lighter approach to life? (that is, to hide the head into sand?) Ok, a ligter approach would certainly help, at least to limit some neck pain. But I like to be healthy (I love life)

Yesterday  we went out with a friend of ours who we seldom see: he lives and works in Rome in tv and movies, and has directed some succesful series. Now he is “between projects”, that means he has not worked for four months. (crisis is there too).We went to eat in a wonderful restaurant (farewell, eating right), but at least we could take a walk in the country with his dog Gianna (his wife rescued her from a shelter three years ago) I didn’t feel heavy, but surely this is not the best way to on…

Help!

Today, finally, sun peeped outside the clouds. It looked like the spring we didn’t have, at least until now. I did 45 minutes of fitness walking and ended up in sweat. Good. At least, I shake my pre - menopausal body. I am in a rut: I ate well, boosted my exercise intake, and weight upped. And I had to come back to a plus size magazine to find a pair of trousers (I did’t find them anyway, so i saved). Doc said my metabolism has definetly slowed down.  So I need a complete check up, since my period stopped two months ago. And I really hope to  find time this week to go to the hospital, and then to two doctors (ob gyn and tyroid). At least I could rest: school were closed. Rain made our rivers dangerously grow, and half the town was evacuated (even the library I use to work part time). Nothing luckily happened, but how come that here in Italy we need to live in the emergency?